The first time I said to myself, “Hey, that’s me!” while watching television was when I was 6 years old. I was mesmerized by the 1982 movie version of Annie. I didn’t see myself in the title character (there’s no red curly hair on my head) but rather as a supporting character named Molly. She had chubby cheeks, dimples, brown eyes, and long brown hair — just like me. Little did I know then that Molly, played by Toni Ann Gisondi, was not Latina. But back then, I was hypnotized by this brown-skinned little girl.

I felt the same kind of happiness again years later when I saw America Ferrera in Real Women Have Curves. These moments of delight seem to come once every few years. I sometimes wonder what it would feel like to be white and see myself depicted as the love interest in a feature film — or as the hero in an action series. 

But media representation is an exhausting subject. We’ve been talking about it forever, and nothing ever changes. 

There are some moments of excitement, though, like when Netflix released Gentefied. This spirited and hilarious show about a working-class Los Angeles family truly spoke to me, and I loved every minute of it. It was canceled after two seasons. HBO, similarly, canceled Gordita Chronicles after just one season. That was heartbreaking. 

But why does it hurt so much? We should be used to it. It happened with Netflix’s On My Block (2018–2021), One Day at a Time (2017–2020), Hulu’s Vida (2018–2020), and I could go on and on. It’s as if studios tease us with inclusion and then quickly take it back like we don’t matter — as if no one will notice the difference. 

When films such as In the Heights and Steven Spielberg’s West Side Story get released, the Latinx community spirals into a frenzy about the lack of representation. Both of those films were stellar and inspiring. However, we dissect every little thing until the entire project is ripped apart because we get maybe one or two movies a year that feature our culture. It’s not enough. 

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